I woke up today and realized it's the second of March. The burning temperature outside and my insatiable yearning for the beach should have warned me that the days are changing pretty fast. And I say this without drama or superficiality, different from how I usually remark about Time before, I can't believe it's March.
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And I can't help but look at my first post of the year and the things I have vowed to accomplish. Well, to be honest, I didn't really vow wholeheartedly. I just tried putting structure into my life. They say that's what adults do. That's what my father told me years and years ago too but I didn't understand it then. Now, I think I know what it means. I thin it means that there are times you have to think about your future not because it's the adult thing to do but you owe it to the people around you and the people who will be around you in the future. (Insert: Kids. Baah! That's for some other post. Why do I hear my mother's voice in my head?)
So I was looking at it and not one post was I able to do. I have read only three books as of the time of writing and I'm currently on my fourth. To be fair, I read A Dance with Dragons in an intentionally excruciatingly slow pace just to shorten the time of waiting for the next book. That was a futile exercise. I am more committed than ever though. I have a time table in my head but nothing ever happens to that. I discard it when I troll on the Internet. Trolling is too much fun.
I have 10 more months to go says March. Who knows?
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And I can't help but look at my first post of the year and the things I have vowed to accomplish. Well, to be honest, I didn't really vow wholeheartedly. I just tried putting structure into my life. They say that's what adults do. That's what my father told me years and years ago too but I didn't understand it then. Now, I think I know what it means. I thin it means that there are times you have to think about your future not because it's the adult thing to do but you owe it to the people around you and the people who will be around you in the future. (Insert: Kids. Baah! That's for some other post. Why do I hear my mother's voice in my head?)
So I was looking at it and not one post was I able to do. I have read only three books as of the time of writing and I'm currently on my fourth. To be fair, I read A Dance with Dragons in an intentionally excruciatingly slow pace just to shorten the time of waiting for the next book. That was a futile exercise. I am more committed than ever though. I have a time table in my head but nothing ever happens to that. I discard it when I troll on the Internet. Trolling is too much fun.
I have 10 more months to go says March. Who knows?
I ♥ my job. My compensation is not bad too. In fact, the only reason why my savings are a meager so and so pesos is because I've mastered spending more than earning. I'm trying to remedy that by having another part-time tutor job and I'll be getting an editing job too.
This week though is a different story. My passion for my job is put to the test. There are just too many unrealistic demands and questionable decisions. I work well under duress, you know. I can still give you outstanding results with the limited time I'm given. Give me the expectations I'm due. Do not baby sit me.
Of course, the reason why I'm even writing this is because I can't man up and tell the person because he/she is scary. Don't get me wrong I am not easily intimated but knowing what I know now, I am scared. This person is a nutcase, I tell you, with a history of ruining lives.
Destroy what destroys you. That has been a mantra I've always repeated but when faced with a nutcase, run. You'll go crazy fighting and they're pretty much broken anyway.
So there. I plan to not lose my footing over this. This period too shall pass. So I'm planning ahead now how my next four days will go. It's going to be Work + House + e-Book. No social networking. No binge eating too.
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