I have been working in the same company for the past four years, and I liked it. Liked. I moved to a department I have always wanted to work in ever since I joined the company. I have been surrounded with people who are Now, I have moved to another department again, and I hate every single second of it. It's like my first company all over again.
It's not the work. I am a lazy person, but when I like what I do, I really don't mind having to work like an ant. I work not just hard, but I work smart. I don't say yes I can do it. I first ask why and then determine whether it's effective or not. Then, I do it. I'm no yes man but I produce results. I don't waste resources. It has been a rewarding experience.
I talk about that all in the past because things are changing. They're changing for the worst. I hate everything about it. I hate a culture of mediocrity and stupidity. I hate a culture of intellectual stasis. And most of all, I hate a culture of bragging without rights.
When you feel you've earned bragging rights, always look at the bigger picture. What if the achievement you deemed was exemplary was actually mediocre and trivial compared to everyone else's? When those who've achieved so much didn't make a mountain out of a mole hill and you did, doesn't that make you ignorant?
I feel like updating my resume. I have yet to finish my Education course, and I haven't evens tarted on my Masters. That's four years more I think. Hang in there.
It's not the work. I am a lazy person, but when I like what I do, I really don't mind having to work like an ant. I work not just hard, but I work smart. I don't say yes I can do it. I first ask why and then determine whether it's effective or not. Then, I do it. I'm no yes man but I produce results. I don't waste resources. It has been a rewarding experience.
I talk about that all in the past because things are changing. They're changing for the worst. I hate everything about it. I hate a culture of mediocrity and stupidity. I hate a culture of intellectual stasis. And most of all, I hate a culture of bragging without rights.
When you feel you've earned bragging rights, always look at the bigger picture. What if the achievement you deemed was exemplary was actually mediocre and trivial compared to everyone else's? When those who've achieved so much didn't make a mountain out of a mole hill and you did, doesn't that make you ignorant?
I feel like updating my resume. I have yet to finish my Education course, and I haven't evens tarted on my Masters. That's four years more I think. Hang in there.
I'm 24 turning 25 months from now. When I compare myself with some of the 24-year-olds that I know, I feel old in many ways. Sometimes I think, I shouldn't have read that many books. There are 24-year-olds that I know though who are so much wiser than me. I would like to engage them in hushed conversations in a dark corner of coffee shop pondering Life and Love away. That I don't do. There are things you simply just figure out for yourself.
That's what I'm doing now. Figuring things out. Changing. Planning (as if!) Embracing it joyously or sometimes not joyously at all. I'd be lying if I tell you I got this. Far from it, I'm lost. Very, very lost. But strangely happy. I have never felt so alive.
"Happiness is a warm gun," John Lennon said. Amen, sir! What is sadness then? I seriously don't know. All I know is I'm sad. Not depress but sad. Not angry sad. Just sad. Good ole' sadness. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Maybe I'm happy because I'm sad. I used to be like that. I probably still am like that.
There are certain kinds of sadness that you will never outgrow. They come without warning. They come while you're satisfied with everything in your Life. They come and go. You thought you've banished them forever, but they come when you least expect them to.
That's what I'm doing now. Figuring things out. Changing. Planning (as if!) Embracing it joyously or sometimes not joyously at all. I'd be lying if I tell you I got this. Far from it, I'm lost. Very, very lost. But strangely happy. I have never felt so alive.
"Happiness is a warm gun," John Lennon said. Amen, sir! What is sadness then? I seriously don't know. All I know is I'm sad. Not depress but sad. Not angry sad. Just sad. Good ole' sadness. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Maybe I'm happy because I'm sad. I used to be like that. I probably still am like that.
There are certain kinds of sadness that you will never outgrow. They come without warning. They come while you're satisfied with everything in your Life. They come and go. You thought you've banished them forever, but they come when you least expect them to.
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